Destined to be apart…

Sadness to him, was not being with the one he loved
When they were torn apart, he felt like a part of him went missing
Certain things out of the blue now makes him cry for no reason
He feels empty inside, having no reason to smile.

Being without her, tears him apart from inside
Even though seeing him no one could ever guess
Loving her so much has become more than what he could stand
The longing to hold her, touch her and kiss her has become unbearable

Wanting her to know his love for her is real
He wouldn’t do anything to ever bring her sorrow or pain
All he wants is to see happiness and joy in her life
And giving her all that he is with no reservations

He gave her his heart, his soul for her to keep
Also with that his love, his compassion and friendship
He would be here being steadfast, true and loving to her
As long as she would want to have him, keep him close to her heart.

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Wish you were mine…

I gave you as much as I could of me
You were in my thoughts and in my dreams
You captured my heart and soul
You meant the world to me.

Lying awake with my head on my pillow, so restless that I can’t sleep
I can’t endure the pain and the thoughts running deep
The thoughts of you won’t go away, no matter how hard I try
Knowing that we were meant to be together, makes me do nothing but cry.

I don’t feel like myself anymore, I feel numb, lifeless and don’t seem to care
I need you to bring me back to life, to hold you and my emotions with you to share
If only you knew what I am going through, it would crush you to pieces
The pain I feel inside has been lingering, and it seems like it never ceases.

I need to get myself back to the way I used to be, what they call a “Normal” life
Still buried are those days when I was carefree, loving and full of life
Its hard to say goodbye, so with a fake smile I try move on to make things fine,
Wishing in my next life I would be your lover and wish you would be mine.

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Wish you were the same…

Dear love,

Its too late now to wonder why, you should have got a clue, when the pain I was going through was staring you right in the face.You obviously could not see the tears behind my painted smile.You chose to be in your own little world and think everything was bed of roses. It was rosy but it was full of thorns. I constantly got scratched and nicked everywhere I turned.

      Day after day your screaming and yelling became a part of the norm. Your words made me feel like I was a piece of wood being chopped by an axe. You came close to unknowingly destroy me but I wasn't going down like that. Every day I woke up with the hope to see you love me back as you did. And everyday with my attempt to achieve that love and closeness from you I kept loosing you more and more.

    You should have given me the love and respect that I always craved for, and treated me like before. But time has passed to dwell on all these things you could have done …

                                   perhaps then I would have never left!

My first and last love

I still remember every detail of that night. How we got in that fight. From the very first time we spoke, until I knew there was no more hope. Well this is the story about my first and last love!

 

She was my everything. She was always there to wipe away my tears and support  me to fight away my fears. But now I sit alone and ask myself, why she had to leave? Didn’t she know I couldn’t live without her? Why didn’t she tell me what she was going through? I guess she did really hide it well! That night she called me. I remember every word she said. It keeps going over and over in my head.

 

I kept yelling at her to tell me what was going on. I told her not to do anything she knew was stupid and wrong. She told me one more time that she loved me but SHE HAD TO GO. Then there was silence on the other end of the phone. I sat there and cried until I heard the dial tone. Then I got up and ran to her house.

 

When I got there I saw my love just lying there, but it wasn’t her anymore. I still want to know what she did that for? It has been one year since that day, since she thought she had to go away. And here I sit on her grave, with my head down in the ground crying as my hands are going over her name.

 

I still love her more than ever and I can’t take this anymore. I take the pills out of my pocket and I take them one by one, until the whole thing is gone. I sit here and wait; I know it won’t be long. I sit with a smile on my face knowing all this pain will soon go away, and I will be with her to stay.

 

I look at her picture once more and then all of a sudden there she is. I cry happy tears knowing we will now be together forever. And no one can take her away! NOT EVER!

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Little did he know…!!

When Rohan and Priyanka looked into each other’s eyes for hours holding hands for the first time, little did Rohan know that after six years it would be so uncomfortable to look into each other’s eyes even for a fraction of a second.

The first kiss on each others lips, the endless and tender hug, roaming around the entire house with Priyanka on his back, taking her in his arms, dancing with each other to the tune of a romantic instrumental, fighting with each other and then rolling with laughter - all these came as a flashback suddenly when Rohan met Priyanka after almost three years of their break up. When they were in love, the entire world didn’t seem to have existed for them. Lost in each others thoughts and love. Every time they hugged each other, Priyanka used to murmur, “ Please never leave me Rohan, I won’t be able to live without you.” And Rohan used to reply in an assuring voice “Sweetheart, in this false world of false truths, I know only one thing true… I’d give up everything just to be with you.” Priyanka felt the safest when she was in his arms and there was no place for anyone else between them. But, now it has become an unbridgeable gap between the two of them. 

Promises to see each other grow old together and innocent hearts were broken. Nothing seemed to work out, when they had to go through a phase of long distance relationship. Rohan did almost everything he could have, to never let go his love. He went to meet her almost across the country, just to make things right. Just to see that love in her eyes for him once again. He never realized that things had changed so much. Still with an everlasting hope, he kissed her saying everything would be perfect again sweetheart, before boarding his train back home…

But little did he know, that it would be the last time their lips ever touched each others, that this goodbye didn’t mean only till tomorrow, but for a lifetime…