Monday, March 29, 2010

Stopped raising Questions…!!

I am alienated from this world. When everyone around is talking about gadgets, movies, celebrities, bikes, hairstyles, trends. I am quite, maybe I know nothing about these things, may be these things mean nothing to me.
And then I think why I can’t extract happiness from these things, why can’t I enjoy life like others. But then in search of Answers I stop raising Questions…

My friends contact me only, when they need help in studies. I pray that there is no free lecture in university, so how will I spend free time alone, but I am not afraid of being alone, I am afraid of being lonely !!

When I am sad, they give me 2 doses of ‘Cheer up’ medicine, without knowing the reason why am I so! Each day I am contacting, each day I am coming within myself, each day I am burying myself.

When you came into my life, I gave you all I had, because you were all what I had. I gave you the dignity, grace, love, care, everything. I spoilt my relationship with those, who don’t care for your grace. I burnt all my bridges. But you remained unconcerned to me, just like everyone else, you maintained relations with those whom I spoilt my relations for you. You call my feeling untrue, unreal and dishonest…. Is it really so? But then in search of Answers I stop raising Questions…

I was all to myself again. The walls I made against the flood of tears, was beginning to weaken, as at the end of the day I am also a human being. Not merely made up of bones and flesh but of feelings and emotions too.
P.S: The innocence of childhood love is often spoilt by the practical views when we grow up.
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