I am alienated from this world. When everyone around is talking about gadgets, movies, celebrities, bikes, hairstyles, trends. I am quite, maybe I know nothing about these things, may be these things mean nothing to me.And then I think why I can’t extract happiness from these things, why can’t I enjoy life like others. But then in search of Answers I stop raising Questions…
My friends contact me only, when they need help in studies. I pray that there is no free lecture in university, so how will I spend free time alone, but I am not afraid of being alone, I am afraid of being lonely !!
When I am sad, they give me 2 doses of ‘Cheer up’ medicine, without knowing the reason why am I so! Each day I am contacting, each day I am coming within myself, each day I am burying myself.
When you came into my life, I gave you all I had, because you were all what I had. I gave you the dignity, grace, love, care, everything. I spoilt my relationship with those, who don’t care for your grace. I burnt all my bridges. But you remained unconcerned to me, just like everyone else, you maintained relations with those whom I spoilt my relations for you. You call my feeling untrue, unreal and dishonest…. Is it really so? But then in search of Answers I stop raising Questions…
I was all to myself again. The walls I made against the flood of tears, was beginning to weaken, as at the end of the day I am also a human being. Not merely made up of bones and flesh but of feelings and emotions too.
P.S: The innocence of childhood love is often spoilt by the practical views when we grow up.
25 comments:
Something has really hurt you I suppose. But all I would say is move on. Out of 10 friends that you have at the most only 1 would be true and would hang on with you during all ups & downs. That's the way life is. True Love is even more difficult to find. Btw.. Good post. Your style of writing is pretty good. There's a rhythmic flow to it which is pleasant to read. Keep penning :)
One of the biggest fears when it comes to feeling my emotions is "Will I get stuck here." This is a common misconception. From my experience, it appears that most people get stuck in the resistance or judgment of their feelings and not in the actual emotions themselves.
Thank you Pooja :)
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i enjoyed it a lot :)
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Glad to hear that you liked it Prerna :)
Hi:) I saw you are following my page and wanted to first say hello and thank you for the support. Then of course I read your entry and connected very quickly to your words. I absolutely understand how you feel and although you're sad, you're WAY ahead of the game because you understand the reasons. Most of us walk around feeling down and have no idea why. Friends will always give you the pat in the back and tell you all will be fine because most are afraid to really sit down, look you in the eyes, and really talk about what's hurting inside. However, a few very special people will... and those... are the really important people in your life. I am lucky and awakened enough to have them in my life and be able to cultivate and grow with the friendships. Not always easy... we've told each other many horrible things but in the end, the bond is stronger and on this Saturday we're all going to get together drink a glass of wine and laugh till we're too tired to keep doing it:) I spend a lot of time alone and I agree... I don't want to be lonely either. But you're never lonely when you're happy alone...hhhmmm... working on it:) XOXOXO
Cindy..You are absolutely right.You almost have the same point of view like mine.Nice to hear that you have such special friends in your life.
Thank You for Your support too. Take care.:)
I usually get bored reading a long post from bloggers to be honest, BUT you captured me with your beautiful writing :)
I will def. be visiting your blog soon!
BTW, it took me a long time to find "true" friends and I slowly weeded out the fake ones. You know you found a good friend when they are there for you at your worst moments..right?
Hey, I could connect so much with ur post !!
What u say is so true- materialistic things like money, gadgets, fashion, cars etc can never give true happiness to people.
To find out what one really wants, one needs to delve deeper into his own being, into his own soul...
And u have put it so beautifully- I m not afraid of being alone, but of being lonely...
* solitude is the "glory" of being alone, and Its good that u enjoy it....
and from ur post it seems like u have just been out of a break up, no doubt u r so hurt!! But trust me, u will gradually emerge out of it stronger & wiser....
keep writing :-) !!
Very good post. Very touchy.
yup i agree "The innocence of childhood love is often spoilt by the practical views when we grow up.:
well nice post n pic do all justice wth it :)
n thnx for folowin ma blog :)
hey dere..!
u know what i find your writing style so similar to mine and moreover your story really touched me. being alone is not a bad state you know. because its better to be alone than to be with people who don't care about you and want you only for their own need and requirements..!
be happy and brave
powers will come to your aid
cheers
@ Tangerine Fairy
Yes i did find some friends who are really true. Nice to hear that you liked my post. :)
@ And that's all
Thank you for visiting my blog .:)
@ Deepa Kashyap
Thanks for visiting my blog :)
@ Sepo
Whatever u said is exactly what i feel. Its better to be alone than to be with hypocrites.
Nice to hear that you liked my post. :)
very aptly said that The innocence of childhood love is often spoilt by the practical views when we grow up.
Cries of Silence
I would start with a thak you note! Thank you for visiting me!
I loved your writing style, generally a serious post bores me, but yours did not! Loved it!
I am sorry i cannot extend beyond that beacuse I have no ides what it is to be lonely or alone! one day when loneliness will get over me, i will join the bandwagon too!
Introspective post...
The innocence of childhood love is often spoilt by the practical views when we grow up.
Good one:)
you DO know how to express youe feelings into words and that is somehting truly spectacular :D
@ bibhash k jha -
Thank you :)
@ Kajori -
Glad to hear that you liked my post ! Keep visiting :)
@ Jaunty -
Thank you Jaunty ! Keep visiting :)
@ anm01 -
Glad to see you in my blog. Keep visiting :)
I don't know what to say man...
Maybe this incident has made you into a writer that you are today
Talking about misery, I wrote this poem about misery and how we love it. Let me know if it helps.
http://keshavnarla.wordpress.com/2010/07/01/nothing-to-say/
But again you have gone through much more than I ever did.
But try to focus on positive writing - children, life, adventure
You could be in viscous circle - Feeling miserable you pour feeling through writing, everyone love your writing, you are encouraged to write more about misery...
But again sometimes you have to let everything out....
Forgive me if I'm way off mark here.
p.s- Someday you should tell your real story
The P.S. concludes the essence of the post. I too got couple of friends, close to my heart, to whom I talk all my heart. And a very special one, the only one, who understands even my silence. :-)
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